Monthly Archives: May 2015

Slow progress is better than no progress

Jen at Manchester station

Where’s this train at then?

Aside from the occasional tumbleweed, things have been pretty quiet here on Dirty Butterfly recently.  I wish I could say that I’ve been off having great adventures, but in actuality it’s mostly been Netflix and 5 back-to-back seasons of Breaking Bad.

TV shows aside, I have been feeling a bit unsettled of late and getting that ‘not much has happened with my transition’ frustration.  It’s been 5 months since the work Christmas party, and back then I thought I’d have more progress to report by May.

In fairness to myself, one of the main reasons that I feel I haven’t achieved a lot recently, is because I’ve done so much already that there’s not that much left to do!  The main area I thought needed work in my New Year post was that I should expose myself to more normal situations, be more overtly feminine instead of hiding behind an androgynous shield.

Last week I went to a conference in Manchester with my work colleagues.  I was lying in bed the night before (deep somewhere in season 3 of Breaking Bad) and my mind wandered to thinking about which t-shirt to wear with my jeans the next day.  It didn’t take me long to realise that this was exactly the sort of opportunity I was looking for to push myself that little bit further and go full girl.  Queue frantic digging through drawers at 11pm to find something suitable to wear!

I settled on a nice top and skirt, one of those tops that I’ve had for ages but never found the right occasion to wear it.  I must admit I was nervous approaching Leeds station at rush hour, but my colleagues were great and the whole day felt so natural.  In fact, I totally forgot there was anything different going on.

Not happy about the massive queues to use the ladies’ toilets mind you!